This fast is stripping away the layers of sin from my life. It reminds me of peeling an onion. It can produce tears, but in the end it is well worth it. 

I really focused on day 10 on asking God to search me and to remove all ungodly attributes from me. I have been asking God to remove bitterness and unforgiveness from me for a long time. I am seeing unforgiveness and especially bitterness get peeled away. However, he reminded me of other issues that I need to deal with. I asked him to remove gossip, jealousy, idolatry, covetousness, and lack of contentment from me.  In fact I got the opportunity to work out gossip and jealousy yesterday. I was told a piece of what I would have thought of as juicy information by an extended family member yesterday. I would have gotten on the phone to discuss this juicy info. with my sister on any other given day. However, yesterday I was so convicted by these sins in my life, that I committed not to utter this information. I also committed to pray for the person behind the gossip and I developed a deep conviction that my first thought should have been compassion and urgency to pray for  the person involved.   The jealousy issue crept in later in the day. I saw a friend’s house for the first time and became jealous. I then started to tear my own house down in my head and obsessed a while over it. This robbed me of a golden opportunity to participate fully in worship through my church. My mind kept turning to my house and all that it lacks. I wrestled over this for a while last night. I kept asking God to take it away but I kept returning to it.  I woke up with a much clearer perspective this morning.  I realize that when I am weak as I am from fasting little issues can become monsters in my mind.  I believe God will continue to peel back the layers until the diamond in the rough bursts forth.  Thank you Jesus!