This day has been so hard for me. It is evening as I write and I am feeling so weak. I know that in my weakness Christ reveals himself to me. I am so thankful for this fast and that I get to be removed from the throne, so that Christ can sit on the throne of my life. I also believe this weakness is necessary to make me press in to God. For several days I no longer felt weak and I started to lose my intense focus on Jesus. I am thankful for the weakness and that it is pointing me back to the cross.

I had the opportunity to pray with two of my patients today. I am a home care physical therapist, and I feel like I get to be used by God daily to show his love to hurting elderly folks. The more I pour out myself to my patients the weaker I am at the end of the day. I see that I have a pattern in that I would generally come home from work after a long day of pouring into my patients, and I would feel the need to eat for comfort and relief from stress.  That method is no longer going to be an option for me. I must now come home for work even after the fast and turn to my savior to fill me back up and not the counterfeit; food.

Daily I get to see a different perspective on life. I see people at the end of their lives with their possessions surrounding them. Some are poor and some are wealthy. I get the opportunity to see first hand that we all come to a place where none of these possessions and no amount of money can stop the inevitable. It makes me see crystal clear that this earth is but a vapor. And nothing we strive for materially on this earth matters. I am so thankful that I am gaining an eternal perspective on my life from this fast.